This week has been both trying and frustrating. uhhhhh. How do I start.
I had an affair. It started because I felt neglected in my relationship. I didn't get the time and attention that I needed. I did get it from the new person.
It's only been going on for a few weeks, but I couldn't keep the double life thing going.
I broke up with Daniel. He doesn't know. I told him everything but that.I just couldn't keep it up. I am so confused, and so hurt. I put all of this on myself.
As much as I know about the new person, I like. But he has his own situation that he needs to resolve.
I am upset because I have received more attention and focus from a stranger in the last two weeks than I have received in a year with Daniel.
I woke up one day and reaalized that things in its present form with Daniel weren't going to work. I needed more time, more attention. I need to feel more than safe and comfortable. I wanted to feel special. I don't know if Daniel can do that. And I don't want to change him because I don't want him to resent me later on.
I look at the new guy and I think, wow. But I didn't leave Daniel for anyone but myself.
